January 3, 2010
I had a wonderful Christmas with The Grand kids & Co. and a wonderful time in Christmas recovery. It’s now the end of the long New Year weekend and I suppose it’s time to think ahead a bit. I don’t make a habit of thinking ahead – much prefer the present moment – but still, I’m ready to think of some possible changes.
I don’t generally stay in one place for too long. Six years is about my max. I’m not into the whole travel thing but I do like moving my home from time to time and experiencing new ways of living a life. I grew up in Ogden, UT where the great outdoors “grew me up”. Hiking in the mountains fishing the streams and sleeping out under the stars all summer – skiing all winter – it was a wonderful life in a wonderful way but somehow I never fit in. I found later it was just a cultural thing but it took some experience of the larger world to find that there are places on the planet that I fit perfectly. After even more experience of the larger world I find that I fit anywhere – it was just an uncomfortable thing within my understanding of myself that made me feel I didn’t fit within whatever environment I found myself.
I have lived in the Midwest, Northern CA, Southern CA, The Northwest and the Southwest, and in London and Oxford. I loved all of those places but the Midwest which just served to show me how much I loved all the rest. Each place holds to it’s own cultural values and I find as I live in each I take on some of those values as a comfortable cloak which can be worn or shed at will when I move on.
While living in different places I have done different things with my time. I have been a wife and mother, musician, teacher, sales rep., retail clerk, security guard, cook, temp, and mentor to teens. I loved something about each job I ever had & I really didn’t like some things about some of the jobs I had.
But back to the here and now. I have been in Kanab, UT now for nearly six years and I’m getting itchy feet. My dilemma is that I love it here and have everything I need. In the past I have moved partly to take the next step toward getting everything I wanted and needed – things like a paid for house with all the pet fencing required and the little comforts for me, room to roam, either culturally or actual wide open spaces, delights for the eye and heart etc. but here I am now with all I require and I’m perfectly content. This has never happened before. Hum…
So I am considering my choices about what to do with my time and my heart now that I am not driven so much by necessity. How fortunate that makes me. I think I’ve just overwhelmed myself. Still, I’m not concerned with making choices. I know from past experience that at some point the spirit will move me in a direction that will be irresistible and I will go effortlessly where ever it leads.
So. That was fun! Now back I go to the present moment.